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Hey again,
So a lot has happened this week. I ended up breaking down and e-mailing Mike. I just said that I was sorry for whatever I may have done to cause this fight to start. He then called me and said that he was just frustrated that day and he was planning to call me back later on. But then guess what....surprise, surprise "I'm too busy." I am just going to let him do this own thing. I just wanted to make sure that we were going to get along at Sarah and Steve's wedding a year from now since we will both be in the wedding.
As for the diet, I started to yo-yo on the first day, then gave in. Then I forced myself to not give in. On a scale of 1-10, I would say I am a 7. I have not drank pop over a week, but I really need to tell myself to stop when I hit my calorie limit. This weekend was horrible, I went way over. So tomarrow, I am really going to push myself to be more strict. Plus I am going to quit weighing myself. Everytime I get on that stupid thing, it keeps giving me raidcal number that make no snese. Plus, when I was still at Curves, they said that the inches matter more then weight. This is because you are gaining muscle, while getting smaller. And they were right! When I was there, I lost 30-35 inchs and 10 pounds! Also, I can start to feel different msucles forming. This is in my legs and my stomach. Best of all, my butt too! I had to sit on a hard bench today when I was working with my sister, and I auctully felt the bones in my butt when I sat! I thought I was maybe too tnese, so I tried to relax, and I still felt it! I know its totally random, but I'm happy with it!
Since I got the diet thing going, this bring me to another point that I am going to work on-flirting. So I'm a dork and I took a quiz to see how good of a flirt I was. I kinda was all over with different quizzes. I really am an outgoing and bubbly person. It's just for some reason, I have not been acting like that. So I am going to try and work on flirting.
BTW-I saw Ross today! He sounded tried, so I didn't want to bug him too much. When he walking into the room, I could hardly breath and I started to shake. I kinda think my sister knows, but since love/sex is a taboo subject in my house, she has not said anything to him. After awhile when he was working on something, he did mantage to say "Hi Steph, how are you". And it was the tone of voice of either he was tried, or he wanted to break the ice with me. I said hi and that was it. I was happy that he called me Steph. Here's why, if you are a friend-its Steph, if you are family-it's Stephie, if you are anyone else-it's Stephanie. I then let everyone decide what to call me. So it sounds like he wants to be friends. The only trouble is that I rarely see him, so it's going to be very tricky to develop anything. But I knew from the start not to espect too much out of him.
I also have this werid feeling that this 4th of July is going to be really speical for me. I don't know why. I think that I am guessing that I will be more actrative then and have more convidence when it come to flirting. Plus, my cousin and her husband (who is starting to be like a brother to me now) can't come because they are pregnat. Let's knock on wood that I am right
I am also planning on calling old friends. I started a group on facebook on getting phoen numbers back from others who want to stay in contact with me. I kinda went crazy one day and deleted numbers of people I thought I would never talk to again. Then that lead me to hardly anyone. I then decided that I do not need to cut so many people off. I am going to call 2 people per week and do some reconnection.
So now for round two here is what I am going to work on: stricter on diet, flirting, and getting my social life back.
Let's hope for the best!
Steph :0)
So a lot has happened this week. I ended up breaking down and e-mailing Mike. I just said that I was sorry for whatever I may have done to cause this fight to start. He then called me and said that he was just frustrated that day and he was planning to call me back later on. But then guess what....surprise, surprise "I'm too busy." I am just going to let him do this own thing. I just wanted to make sure that we were going to get along at Sarah and Steve's wedding a year from now since we will both be in the wedding.
As for the diet, I started to yo-yo on the first day, then gave in. Then I forced myself to not give in. On a scale of 1-10, I would say I am a 7. I have not drank pop over a week, but I really need to tell myself to stop when I hit my calorie limit. This weekend was horrible, I went way over. So tomarrow, I am really going to push myself to be more strict. Plus I am going to quit weighing myself. Everytime I get on that stupid thing, it keeps giving me raidcal number that make no snese. Plus, when I was still at Curves, they said that the inches matter more then weight. This is because you are gaining muscle, while getting smaller. And they were right! When I was there, I lost 30-35 inchs and 10 pounds! Also, I can start to feel different msucles forming. This is in my legs and my stomach. Best of all, my butt too! I had to sit on a hard bench today when I was working with my sister, and I auctully felt the bones in my butt when I sat! I thought I was maybe too tnese, so I tried to relax, and I still felt it! I know its totally random, but I'm happy with it!
Since I got the diet thing going, this bring me to another point that I am going to work on-flirting. So I'm a dork and I took a quiz to see how good of a flirt I was. I kinda was all over with different quizzes. I really am an outgoing and bubbly person. It's just for some reason, I have not been acting like that. So I am going to try and work on flirting.
BTW-I saw Ross today! He sounded tried, so I didn't want to bug him too much. When he walking into the room, I could hardly breath and I started to shake. I kinda think my sister knows, but since love/sex is a taboo subject in my house, she has not said anything to him. After awhile when he was working on something, he did mantage to say "Hi Steph, how are you". And it was the tone of voice of either he was tried, or he wanted to break the ice with me. I said hi and that was it. I was happy that he called me Steph. Here's why, if you are a friend-its Steph, if you are family-it's Stephie, if you are anyone else-it's Stephanie. I then let everyone decide what to call me. So it sounds like he wants to be friends. The only trouble is that I rarely see him, so it's going to be very tricky to develop anything. But I knew from the start not to espect too much out of him.
I also have this werid feeling that this 4th of July is going to be really speical for me. I don't know why. I think that I am guessing that I will be more actrative then and have more convidence when it come to flirting. Plus, my cousin and her husband (who is starting to be like a brother to me now) can't come because they are pregnat. Let's knock on wood that I am right
I am also planning on calling old friends. I started a group on facebook on getting phoen numbers back from others who want to stay in contact with me. I kinda went crazy one day and deleted numbers of people I thought I would never talk to again. Then that lead me to hardly anyone. I then decided that I do not need to cut so many people off. I am going to call 2 people per week and do some reconnection.
So now for round two here is what I am going to work on: stricter on diet, flirting, and getting my social life back.
Let's hope for the best!
Steph :0)
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